Lots is being written on that subject right now, around the web … not only here in the blogosphere but also in Facebook — at least in my circle of contacts. They even have a little application where they post something like ‘Today’s Gratitude’ or some such.
So … I thought I too should add my ¢2 worth, because I’m so grateful for so many things. I will have to limit myself a little in this post otherwise it will go on eternally. If we for a moment disregard the most obvious things that I’m always thankful for … Gerry, my husband, our cat, health and so on … there are also many other things on different levels. That I was born where I was, for example … Sweden. A country where we’re taken care of from the cradle to the grave. I could have been born on Africa’s horn, where they’re really suffering under the worst drought in the century.
This leads me to another, often overlooked thing: The shower. Now during this heat wave we’ve experienced, I’ve showered two, sometimes three, times a day. The unimaginable luxury of letting water spray all over you … not having to walk barefoot in unbearable heat for a little can of water [in the best of cases] … How come that I was this fortunate and do I deserve it?! I don’t have any answers.
Sometimes, downtown, or during a little walk down to the grocery store here, I think about how I must focus on the now … to truly appreciate this feeling of joy over being here … this friendly place on the North American continent, and how it was made possible for me to come here. Strangers say HI to me, calls me ‘hon’! I know it doesn’t mean much, but I suck it all up and feel good about it. Again … did I deserve it?!
The fridge: Quite often … almost always … I get annoyed when we come back home from grocery shopping and I unpack the bags. The fridge is so full, so it’s really difficult to get anything in there. Those are the moments I must really stop and think!!! First off … we have a fridge … and an apartment … a HOME! I don’t have to sleep on top of some air vent outside a restaurant in Washington D.C.,with some old newspapers as a blanket! We have a bed that is heavenly! Secondly … I’ve lived through times when the fridge has been empty, and I’m thankful for those times too. They taught me something … to be humble, for example.
I won’t list every thinkable disease I could have suffered from … I’ll just mention one condition that I think might be a little misunderstood or overlooked. It’s rather, a combination — social phobia and panic anxiety disorder. I don’t suffer from that, and for that I’m also eternally grateful. I can go out, do my shopping, stand in line, take a bus or a flight anywhere, go to a movie theater … and be totally calm and cool about it. My heart won’t race, the room won’t spin … I could probably stand up and give a speech in front of a big bunch of people if I tried. All of the aforementioned things would be impossible for a sufferer of this syndrome. That often strikes me in all kinds of situations …especially the ones that involve lots of people around me.
So … in order to sum this all up: Often we go out to the ocean. I sit on the shore, watching the tide … either rolling in or going out … I think of how little I am and how short my time here is … one could perhaps think ‘how insignificant my time here is‘ … That, however, I won’t know …until later, perhaps 🙂 and again I’m reminded of how important it is to me to try and live in the now. Not wasting my precious time on regrets … old choices … or about tomorrow, which I can’t even be sure of.