The headline is misleading. It looks like I suffer from insomnia on a regular basis. Well … it is sort of regular, but still rare. About once a month there’s this night when I cannot sleep, and it doesn’t have to be full moon. Sometimes it is. The pattern is not the same every time … sometimes I fall asleep, wake up wide awake after an hour … other times I just can’t fall asleep.
Since I’m not working, I don’t spend any time tossing and turning anymore … I get up as soon as I realize it’s one of those nights. While I was still working, this posed a problem … I was desperate to sleep each time it happened as I knew I had to be up and alert in just a few hours. Kept gazing at the clock radio and it only got worse the later/earlier it got. The numbers on the clock radio looked like phone area codes, and sometimes I fell asleep trying to see if I remembered which place each code was … 0155 being Nyköping and so on. If I was awake to see Uddevalla which is 0522, then it was really bad.
Sometimes I got up back then too. Turned on the TV. If I lived somewhere where I had cable, I watched CNN. MTV sometimes, but not so much. They played too much MC Hammer. CNN was better because that was boring and kind of depressing so I went back to bed again.
Nowadays, I don’t turn on the TV … now I have this! The Internet! Here, is always something to look at or to read. I avoid playing the game in Facebook though, because that’s stressful and just raises the blood pressure. I really should have a copy of «The Rise and Fall of the Roman Emire» lying around for these occasions … or something similar that would immediately put me to sleep.
I’ve tried one technique … to focus hard on just my own breathing. “Breathe in, breathe out”… to think only of that and somehow push the bad thoughts aside. It works sometimes. Somehow it seems that only bad memories and thoughts show up in my mind those nights … never the happy, cheerful ones.
Last night was NOT one of those sleepless nights. As soon as my head hit the pillow I must have lost consciousness.
Do you have any good trick to fall asleep?